for you
who shines brighter than shards of sunshine, whose eyes hold more stars than the night sky, and in whose arms i finally found solace.
lonely universe - aqu3ra
"Because in this universe, on this vast planet, i was able to know you."
puzzle piece - nct dream
"At some point, before i realised it, you've become my everything; my missing puzzle piece."
the one - kodaline
"Tell me that you want me, and i'll be yours completely, for better or for worse."
i.
The universe is such an enigma, don't you think? It works in the most mysterious ways; pulling, tying, and severing threads invisible to human's eyes for unknown reasons. Sometimes it results in the most beautiful connections someone has ever made in their life, sometimes it just brings passersby who will stick around for awhile before walking out entirely, leaving an important lesson in their wake -- and sometimes, a deluge of tears and a trail of broken heart. And even though i still couldn't and maybe would never figure out the inner workings of the universe, i firmly believe thhat everything happens for a reason, including the day life saw it fit to tug on our strings of fate and entangle them with each other.
II.
If someone had told me, several months ago, that i would find someone whom i could fully entrust my heart to and finally be as happy as i could be, perhaps i would have thrown my signature empty laughter at them and promptly write them off as insane. Because, obviously, im a very flawed person. I have the emotional range of an unlit match stick and i could hardly get within the six feet distance of the opposite sex without breaking into a cold sweat (eye contact and skinship before marriage? preposterous). In all sense of honesty, i had completely resigned myself to a forever alone life, perhaps adopt two, three, or fifty cats later down the road if it ever gets too lonely, you know?
But then, you came into my life, and suddenly colors flooded in and my world was no longer shaded in black and white.
You're sunkissed laughter, moonlit eyes, and cherry blossom smiles. You're traces of gentle spring rain and refreshing saltwater sprays in summer. You walked into my life and so easily got it right where everyone so inherently got it wrong. You've shown me patience, taught me how to be gentle with myself and that sometimes, it's okay not to be okay. You showed me how to be a lot less fearful and a little more alive . You opened up new worlds within me and reminded me all that i'm capable of. You make me feel like i matter. Because of you, i am "more".
III.
I love you.
In fact, i have loved you for quite a while.
And im so sorry it took me so long to say it but i hope that you know, behind every whispered syllables that make up your name, behind every good nights and good mornings, behind every "please eat well" and "go to sleep soon" there echoed another meaning. It is subtle, and sometimes i do worry you might not be able to feel it, but when our fingertips brush against each others, when i hold you in my arms, when i tuck your hair behind your ear, i hope you know that it's also me, implicitly saying i love you.
You make the sun shine within me. You're my special someone. The reason why my heart belongs in this world. I want to spend my days laughing with you and my nights holding you in my arms. Today, tomorrow, and for the rest of forever. You're my home, my soulmate, my shooting star, my everything.
Yeh Shuhua, im so incredibly in love with you. I love you, you and only you. I always have. I have always been yours since day one, unofficially. And this might be so long overdue, but i do think that its as good time as any to finally ask you, if you would be mine, officially? Would you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?